I admit it. Not proudly, but I do admit that I had a full-on Facebook breakdown last night. It’s been building since way before the election, of course, and maybe I should be proud of myself for lasting that long.
I was sitting on my couch, literally screaming “Stop lying!!!!” at my phone and then reposting the things that made me scream.
I know better. I teach about the power of positive thinking, the link between words and thoughts and manifestations. I teach about using your power for good in the world. I teach about self-care, emptying yourself of the toxins while replenishing the nourishing things in your life. Blah, blah, blah, fucking blah. I have obviously let myself run a little toxic anyway.
So, I’m starting over again. I took today off of Facebook. Well, until about 2:30, when I went on only to check what friends I still had. Kidding. I wanted to see the kittens Joanne had sent me. I followed strict rules I had set for myself by skipping over anything that had potential to trigger me. I spent no more than ten minutes and found the following bits of bright, sunny things:
- One friend witnessed a profound change in the culture of the school of which she is principal. A child who normally struggles with social skills and might in other situations be an easy target for bullying led a discussion amongst her peers successfully. Other kids told her how well she did and noticed how kind she is. Yay!!!
- Like I said, my friend sent me a great kitten video. I want more kittens because the ones we got a while ago are not so much kittens anymore. Kitten therapy…. Crazy cat lady… Potato…. Potahto…
- A friend of mine who is coming up on the 9 month anniversary of the death of her husband found a reason to laugh with him today. I know from the deaths of people close to me how it really feels like they are right there with you when that happens and it is wonderful!
- Many friends I haven’t seen or heard from in a long time want to join a get-together I’m organizing through Facebook to uplift each other.
- Another friend offered to bring ‘adult’ coloring books to that get-together and, because I have a dirty mind, that made me laugh! (Ridiculously hard!)
I can do this. You can, too. Even if we are empathic, peace-loving, hippy freaks, we can do this. We can survive and thrive under circumstances that are challenging.
As my dad taught me through song, “You’ve got to accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative, latch on to the affirmative and don’t mess with Mr. In-between.”
I am so very thankful for friends, near and far.